Dance Memories

A big group of students left today for the Big Dance Event to be held this weekend. And my Facebook page decided to bring up some of my posts from the first one of those I attended.

I had my lessons last night and there were a couple of other students on the floor who were part of the crew. This would be the first Big Dance Event for them. I was watching the interaction between them and their instructors and saw a lot of support. It was nice to see.

When I did that first one, I was the only student from our studio that went. We met up with another nearby studio so at least I knew one other person. It was not the best environment for an introvert like me.

I suspect my attitude towards these events would be a lot different if I had been part of a bigger team like the crew that headed out today. Maybe I would be more willing to go to these events if the memories were better. People do come back talking about how much fun they had and fun would not rank high on the list of words I would use to describe my experiences.

So much is different now. As I said before, there is a long list of things that would explain why those first couple were disasters and most of them no longer apply. Although my reasons for dancing now are different than when I started and those reasons tend to point me away from competitions so my reluctance to attend future events is not solely a function of those first awful experiences. They don’t help though, that’s for sure.

Still, I couldn’t help but look at the smiling faces of all the students without wondering what it would be like to be with them. And perhaps feeling a little bit like I should be there with them.