Tenth Anniversary

Just got a notice from WordPress that I started this here blog ten years ago. Really? Where does the time go? I suppose if I was looking at followers and engagement, I’d consider this a big failure since there are only a handful of people who check in from time to time. But I don’t really think about it that way. I just put stuff out there because sometimes there are just thoughts that need to be expressed.

Funny that I started this right before I did my first Big Dance Event. Last night, I informed PJ that I would not be going to this year’s version of that Big Dance Event. I know they’ve got a crew and wanted to have a bigger crew but it just doesn’t fit with where I want to go right now.

Reading all the critiques and working with the two coaches just confirms what I know about my dancing. I’m not the strongest technically but I put on a good show. Not saying my technique sucks because I got a lot of positives for posture and some from frame and timing. It is just that there are gaps and I know this. Part of that is my dance journey has been very disjointed – changing partners multiple times. Each change is kind of a reset and it takes time to build back up.

Plus it was easier for a lot of those instructors to focus on steps and patterns than on technique. And, I do have these old knees that make it harder to do certain things.

So put me in an environment where you are surrounded by judges with clipboards and they are going to focus on the parts of my dancing that aren’t as strong. The crowd may like what they see but they aren’t hyper focused on things like timing.

And that isn’t to say that improvement isn’t possible and it is certainly something that we will continue to work on. But I also know that it can’t become the primary focus because it would suck all the fun out of dancing (at least for me). I guess I’m primarily there for the entertainment value. Would never have thought this when starting but something about performing just lights me up.

Also, it is not that I’m super competitive but it doesn’t make sense to spend a boatload of money to go dance when the focus is on the weaker parts of my game. I can do Showcase for a fraction of the cost and dance more and have much more fun.

Well that was probably too many words. I realize now that I was doing those first ones for the wrong reasons. Don’t want to do another one until I feel a strong drive to do so.

And I’ll keep this going for awhile as well. Thought about turning it off earlier this year but I still get the urge to come here and toss some random thoughts out into the universe. Another 10 years? That seems like a long time but time does move pretty fast.