So I officially told Kid T and OwnerGuy that the Big Dance Event was off. Told her first and she wanted a little more than just a no which is a fair request. I think I ended up rambling through an explanation similar to what I’ve put on these pages. Just that I didn’t feel we had been working on things that would allow me to perform at a level that I think is appropriate for a competition. She did ask if I wanted to start working more on the shaping and other things and I was a little non-committal. It really is “yes and no”. I do but not all the time. I’m just not the type of person who wants to turn this into a grind and that’s what practicing technique all the time feels like to me.
She hit me with the usual arguments about learning so much from one of these comps and the whole “putting yourself out there” but I batted those down pretty well. I’ve put myself out there. At this point, I know I can go out there and dance. Now, I want to go out and dance well. I don’t really know what that means but I feel it when I get there. Well, maybe I won’t, but that’s a bridge to cross later.
We did talk about what I wanted and there is another award the Famous Franchise gives for doing 9 solo routines at a given level. There’s no time limit on this but we have to go back in time and see what all I’ve done. A lot of my routines were in off dances so they were Bronze and not Associate Silver which just means finding a few more to do. But that’s my new goal. I know, it just means another plaque that will probably gather dust somewhere but it is still a goal and something that is achievable.
I’ve said this before but I do think that at heart I’m a performer. If you forced me to make a choice, I’d rather be entertaining (in a good way) than technically perfect. I don’t even know if that is really a choice but if you made me pick one over the other, I’d go with the entertainment value. Not campy entertainment so the dancing has to contain enough “wow” so that people want to watch.
So we added an ending to our Mambo routine where she does a head roll. Well, I’m sort of turning her but it is her head whipping around. And a few other things to just make it move a little more and that is one we’ll do at Showcase in May. Got ideas for a few more that we’ll be working on as well.
At the end of the lesson, OwnerGuy came over and I repeated the bad news to him. Told him a similar version of the same story but it might have come out better. I made a point that I do the dances but I want to work on making them look more like the dances. I don’t even know how much more I can improve in that area but I do want to better capture the feel of the various dances. I have a feeling this means more arms and potentially moving of other parts which would have to happen to get me up to competition level so I better just get used to that. He asked if Big Dance Events were off the table and I said no but I’d have to consider each on a case by case basis depending on where I felt my dancing was at the given time.
So, the Big Dance Event is officially off the table. I’m sure I’ll do another one at some point in the future. For now, the focus is on Showcase and finding some more solos to do.