In Hollywood, it has become popular to “reboot the franchise” which is really just their way of saying that they really have no new creative ideas and so let’s take some characters people are familiar with, make some minor changes and see if we can sell them a few more movies.
But that is a fitting word because tomorrow I will reboot my dancing life. My bags are packed and in a few hours I will travel a couple hours north. I decided to spend the night there so I can take my time getting ready and not get stressed out driving up. I have no idea when I’m on first since OwnerGuy is notoriously bad at providing that type of information. I had to go to the host Famous Franchise Facebook page just to know that things start at 10. I don’t know when Kid T will be there for us to warm up so I guess I just do the awkward thing and make my way down there sometime after 9 and hope for the best.
The Girl with the Tree Tattoo spoke about the journey vs the destination and that’s something I’ve touched on as well. Ballroom dancing has become so much bigger for me as it has turned into a journey of self-discovery. It has touched parts of me that had been dormant for so long and shown me that I am capable of doing so much more than I ever thought. It is a part of me and I’m not ready for this journey to end because there is still so much I can learn – both about dancing and about myself.
But there must also be progress. I don’t have a fixed goal in mind so mine is more esoteric – to be the best I can be even though I have no idea what that is. As long as I’m getting a sense of progress, then my thoughts and focus are on the journey and just taking it all in. When I start to feel like I’m stagnating, then the destination becomes the more important focus.
My dancing life has taken some interesting twists and turns since June. I know that the things I’m working on with Kid T are not as advanced as the open routines I was doing with Z. But, getting away from her has been good for my sanity and allowed me to heal. That has kept me focused on the journey but I need to know that I can make progress with Kid T or else I will have to start looking elsewhere.
Having said that, I also know this is not the place to really look for that. It is a marker along the road and if it goes well, then it does mean progress. Where I have to caution myself is that if it doesn’t, then it is not the end of the world. Dancing is a team effort and it takes time for the partnership to come together. The dances in the studio are great when we practice but being on the floor with a number on your back is a whole different ballgame. It may take us an event to get our dance legs (so to speak). Personally, I think it is going to be just fine. I see a few bobbles but I think we are going to pull it off.
And events like this then also help form the bond that I really need. We are getting there but the shared experience just gives you something to reflect on and something to know that you’ve both conquered.
In the end, it is the internal struggle. I know this is an important event for me. It is safe to say it is one of the most important things I’ve done as far as helping to shape my future path. And yet, I also know I can’t blow it up to be too big since that would freak me out and that, in and of itself, could doom me. No, tomorrow is important but I have to tell myself it is just another day. A day that I’ll be dancing and any day where you dance is a good day.
PS – don’t read too much into it if I don’t do a post write up the day after. I probably will but I do have to drive back and do some other things and I may need to let it soak in. No matter how it turns out, you will get all the details.