I’m hoping posting this gives me the strength to do what I need to do. Last night, I told Z that I wanted to work on timing and that it had to be numbers and not quicks and slows. Well she has it in her head that I have to count out loud, without her and loud enough so everyone can here. If I don’t do that, I won’t get it. I know the Body Double has not had me do this and we are doing just fine on timing with our routine.
I spent some time trying to figure out why this bothers me so much but I’m starting to realize that it doesn’t matter why. For whatever reason, this is a SERIOUS stress inducing thing for me and I SHOULDN’T have to do it.
I’m an introvert. Techniques that work well on extroverts may fail miserably with me. But it is not up to me to change who I am. I’m paying her to teach ME! It should be up to her to find a style that works for ME.
Well we will see how it goes and if I chicken out. My next post might be very interesting.