First, if you are just landing here and have not kept up with my experiences at the recent dance event, go read this post and the comments. Don’t worry, I’ll wait ….
I know that there are some number of people outside the village who drop by to read things but choose to remain in the shadowy world of lurkers. I think we in the village have just gotten comfortable enough with each other that it is natural to toss out the “likes” and comment from time to time.
I’ve also known that in describing real people, places and events that there is only so much one can do to remain totally anonymous. There has always been the risk that someone would put the pieces together and figure out that Spiderman is really Peter Parker. I guess I just assumed nobody would really bother.
It isn’t really clear to me how much “The CMW” really knows but it was enough to clue the nice folks from the other studio to find me and fill my dance card for the night. And it is not clear to me how direct the link from “The CMW” to this studio is or whether those folks read this blog. But, at a minimum, there are now people with enough pieces of the puzzle that the whole could be assembled.
And that changes things. This blog is therapy for me. As I’ve described, the pro-am relationship is extremely complicated so this is my version of marriage counseling. Allowing me to express things and actually making connections to those who are experiencing similar things and feelings has been invaluable. There is tremendous comfort in knowing you aren’t alone in the world.
However, all long term relationships have their ups and downs and I’ve said some not so positive things about Z and OwnerGuy when I’ve had to express frustrations. As they are well known within the Famous Franchise community, I wish to do nothing that would cause them harm. At the core, they are good people and I have stayed with the studio for many years so there are far more positives than negatives.
Yes, I suppose I’ve always been playing with fire but I have naively assumed that nobody would really care enough to do anything more than read this post. Don’t get me wrong, I meant what I said when I thanked “The CMW” for setting me up with the other studio. But I no longer feel comfortable.
So I have a couple of options:
A. Go totally open and come clean with the blog and just ride out the consequences.
B. Destroy the whole thing and just keep a private journal.
C. Make this a private blog and have more control over who can see it.
D. Pretend this didn’t happen and carry on as normal.
I suspect A and D aren’t really options but I have to consider the best course of action.