I decided to suspend my original idea because this event runs my through an emotional roller coaster so I figured you didn’t need to be subjected to the endless back and forth emotional reactions. I figure I need to give this a couple of days (or longer) to let it all soak in and see how I really feel.
No I’m not doing as well as I would like. My nerves have gotten the best of me and I’m making stupid mistakes and blanking on parts of the routines. But, as they say, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and I’m still alive and kicking. For me, it is just a victory to be here.
I do have a question that maybe you can answer or discuss. For those who do comps, how much attention, interaction, coaching do you get/want from your pro? I don’t know a lot of people who compete so I don’t know what the norms are. And I know you are saying that I’m in a freaking room full of people who compete so why not ask?? Well that just doesn’t seem like a good conversation starter. I do watch and observe but I’m just curious.
I do think these events would be better if we had a crew. It would feel more safe and welcoming like the studio. Don’t get me wrong, these people are certainly friendly but since its just me and Z, it is easy to feel isolated and alone.
So that’s all from here. I’ll do a recap once I’ve returned safely home and things have settled down. I will say something else. The good thing about coming here is that it has given me a clear goal to talk about and something I can feed to them to work on. I’ll discuss that at a later date.