Some little words that I can’t get out of my head

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It was a single line on one of the critiques that I somehow missed when they were reviewed with me.  It was by the male professional and simply said “I’d like to work with you.  You could be great.”  The last four words just keep repeating in my head.

I have a friend at work who is a pretty big cynic and also something of a pessimist.  We’ve talked about feedback and her opinion is that you always have to consider the angle of the person giving the feedback.  To her, there is usually an ulterior motive at work and so all comments must be taken with a grain of salt.  There is no question that there is a financial angle here and a pure cynic could look at that comment and say that he’s just pumping me up so I’ll by more lessons and that he does benefit financially if I were to take a coaching lesson with him.  (Which I did but I did not see that comment until the day after he left the studio).  Given that he asked that night about working with me and knowing that I wouldn’t see the comment until later, I am going to look past the cynical view but simply wanted to present it to stay a little grounded.

You could be great.  Why does it matter so much?  I started this journey just to have fun but it has become so much more than that.  I have learned so much about myself and have used this to push myself out of my comfort zone which sometimes takes me to places that I really don’t like and forces me to confront those things.  It has challenged me in so many ways and, while there were days in the dark periods where I wanted to give up, I’ve continued to work though and meet the challenges.  Dancing and watching myself is what finally forced me to confront my weight and realize that I needed to change.  I am in a much, much better place right now and I am a much different person than I was even two years ago and that is all because of ballroom.  I’ve put a lot into this but I’ve received a heck of lot more.

Why does it matter?  Because I do wonder about my potential.  Given that I’m not the youngest person anymore and that I do have some musical challenges, I had always figured that I’d run up against some wall that I couldn’t get around.  Kind of like the pole vault where you keep going until the bar gets so high that you can’t get over it.  Secretly, from time to time, I’ve felt that wall was closer than I would have liked.  Maybe there really isn’t a wall.  I know I can’t devote all of my time (or money) to this which I also thought would limit me.  But, maybe that just influences the speed at which I can move but doesn’t put a ceiling on how far I can go.

You could be great.  Yeah, I like the sound of that.  Think I’ll go for it and see what happens.

 

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